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Originally Posted by Phobicperson
What if I don't have OCD but I'm just showing symptoms because I've read about it a lot (but I spent so much time researching this and just thinking about this it has to be OCD right??? Right??? Right???)
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Oh, that's something which has caused me a huge amount of anxiety. I don't know how to handle those thoughts. How are you supposed to know what's true and what's not?
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Originally Posted by Akuma
 Yes, me-me-me. I totally get really paranoid that I'm somehow lying, and that I've managed to convince the doctors that I'm "not well". I get paranoid about just how bad I am. I sometimes wonder "What if I'm just lazy?" Haha. It's so stupid, I know, but I can't help but to feel that way. I feel like crap about getting government financial support, as well, because I "cannot" work, and I just get all paranoid that I'm lying, committing benefit fraud, and so on. I'm assuming all this is just part of OCD. But yeh, you're not alone. I also worry about whether I'm "attention seeking". I think I might mention this to my therapist, because it's a problem I've had for a long time, especially since I started coming out about it, and getting help. :\ |
Yeah, I mean I know it's all a bit stupid because how the heck does one fake years and years of mental illness (even before seeking help)? Anyway, I've suspected it might be something that has to do with my OCD before but yesterday was the first time someone really told me it is.
Can't stop worrying about tomorrow though. What if I see my therapist and he's forgotten what I've told him? Or what if he's misunderstood everything?