Thanks! Can't wait to get back into therapy! I really need to relearn certain behaviours and need to learn a healthier way of releasing these feelings of mine. Just feel so screwed up you know? I have the best intentions at heart but repeatedly screw things up somehow and revert to unhealthy behaviour. This **** is at my core though so have little faith it can be helped. I have already been through a lot of counselling and briefly some cbt but cbt guy was a pig but that's another story. I feel so emotionally dumb I mean really retarded. I am still hanging out with some hope for next t but I fear I just won't ever change.

Sitting here feeling sick now. Split all the stuff I bought with hubby and ate half of it all. Have a little left over but feel so fricking sick now. Next step is to bring it back up and I know that would be such a release.....