Thanks for the replies everyone! This morning was rough. I saw my t for my appt just after I started this thread. Between typing on here and talking to her it feels a bit better to get it out. And of course your replies are very encouraging.

Skittles56, I just started on lamictal. Dr said your supposed to go up on it slow. There's some kind of risk of a crazy insane side affect of a disease that can kill you if you don't on 25mg atm...working my way to 150mg.

trazadone for sleep as well. we stopped the ad so I'm experiencing withdrawal too.