Buttrfli, this recently happened to me. The only thing I could do to get that number out of my head was write it down over and over again, rip up the paper, and flush them. Gaining the weight is good! Stressful, but good. And I worked really hard to carry on, but I know you can do it too.

Didn't eat much yesterday due to pain, and actually felt bad about NOT eating! That was a new feeling. Today I've had fruit for breakfast, and pasta for lunch.