Today I feel okay, which is one hundred times better than I've been feeling which is mixed. I went to a psychiatrist for the first time today(before I was only seeing a therapist), he said that I am Bipolar II, mixed, rapid cycling. He prescribed an anticonvulsant. I feel a little apprehensive about taking it, but anything to get rid of this never ending cycle of being up, then down, then both at the same time. It's torture. So I hope it works.