First of all, welcome to PC! I hope you find the support you need during this very hard time in your life. I can certainly sympathize with your situation, I've been there myself. When I first started therapy I couldn't look my T in the eyes, it took awhile for me to gain trust with her for me to open up and look her in the eyes. We cannot diagnose you through the internet, the first step to any recovery program is going to be admitting you have a problem, which you have already done. The second step in your case will be to go see a psychiatrist for an accurate diagnosis and some form of psychotropic medication and get yourself involved in therapy, either one on one or group therapy. I think you will benefit from it greatly, I used to be scared of the dark when I was younger as well. I also had things that would seem to go "bump in the night" this was my mind playing tricks on me, there is nothing that is actually there and they cannot hurt you.

I always look over my shoulder as well, I think its because we both share a traumatic history of being picked on by our peers. If you get on the right medications for your condition (whatever it is) you won't be as paranoid and you can finally relax. That is good you are taking good steps towards your diet and doing exercise, going in the forest is also therapeutic. You could also try some guided imagery videos on YouTube, I found them to be very helpful for my own stressful life. I hope you can break down the wall and get the help you need. Don't worry about what your parents think of you, they are the ones who created you. The only person who matters in this case is you and getting help for these problems.

Try to be easy on yourself, you might benefit from reading over this list of cognitive distortions a few times. http://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/...ve-distortions it helped me. Take care Lazermage