I am back from the MD's office. He had me relax and breathe normally for a minute and my blood pressure was normal. He did not think that I needed an EKG. I do need to lose weight. My stomach, however, is not well. And, there is some pain in my ears. I may just go to bed and rest. The high heat and humidity today is not helping. Tomorrow I have a consultation with a new T.

I have had problems with 1-2 T's (There was one who tried to get me to attend his Friday night bible class and read his religious pamphlets; another accused me of ruining his practice when 2 member of the group didn't like me and left - he also threw his hands up when I told him I did not like gay sex.) but the real problem was with former employers. One former employer - I learned after starting - had a reputation for mistreating employees and then giving them negative references to prevent them from finding future employment. There were 3 psychopaths at the office who worked in conjunction to drive people crazy with overwork and abuse. They included the senior partner of a small law firm, her long-term lesbian lover who served as office manager and the receptionist who was a bona fide loony, problem instigator and most likely sexual play toy of the senior partner and office manager. I will give you an example: One day I was working in the conference room on a project that required extra space. I was immersed in my work. The receptionist came in and asked me if I liked to sleep around. I dodged the question but she was insistent. Finally, to get rid of her, I finally answered that I did not sleep around. I figured, what was the harm. It was none of her business anyway. She then replied that "she believed in free love and my thoughts were harassing her." Management offered to move my desk so that I would no longer sit in her line of view. Of course, this was ridiculous. There was no way the receptionist could know what I was thinking. And, there is nothing wrong with not choosing to sleep around especially when you are gay and there is the risk of contracting AIDS or other diseases. It was sexual harassment, pure and simple. It was also gender discrimination.