well i made it through another day. its just getting to the point where i dont care anymore and i dont even want to show up. i just dont what to do any more. i have performance anxiety, and i want to find a new job but i dont have a clue where to go. ugh. im so tired of beating myself up its exhausting. and yes i do talk to a thearapist who i LOVE but i feel like we havent really "worked on any thing" i just kind of sit there and talk. lool idk. but she is wonderful.. i hvae a psychiatrist and he sepnds 5 mins with me and just writes me script after script. im looking into talking with a private psychologist hopefully i can afford it ;( ugh i just want to feel OKAY... thats all im shooting for at the moment. i would love to feel better but i know it will take time..

my doctor says im cyclothimic and some general anxiety

i was on wellbutrin and lamctal for like 4 months (i was GREAT happy smiles feeling like i was superwoman went out did things ect) stopped taking them---- and CRASHED fell into this terrible depression and here i am

my doc then prescribed me zoloft and propranol then switched me to trazdone and propranol and something else.. i cant even keep up/

now im on klonipin and propranol and im not sure how i feel on it considering i take it at night..