I have it, and I really think it is a part of OCD. It is obsessive thinking and intrusive, negative thoughts. I think once we get to a point that we are mentally ill, we start buying into stigmas (and it's not your fault! sometimes we don't even know we are doing it!) and doubt ourselves and think "wow. I've made this all up in my mind. I am a liar. I am awful. I am a fake." (that is how it goes for me, at least).

It's not stupid! I promise. These are hard illnesses to deal with, ESPECIALLY OCD the most misunderstood mental illness. It will be okay, I promise. (((hugs)))