This is my third and final attempt and writing a thread. I've been getting side tracked and writing wall of text with out getting anywhere... I'll try to keep it short and simple.......

I take adderall. It works. I don't like taking my adderall. It gives me false ambitions and emotions. I wake up the next day off of my adderall feeling like I went on a drunk-dialing spree and regretted everything I said and did. It's not uncommon for me to make plans with people I don't like, apply to volunteer at homeless shelters, etc. I like adderall because I feel like I'm broken and adderall fixes me. Only when it fixes me it gives me a fake personality that I have to wear at the cost of being fixed. This overly ambitious attitude it gives me makes me completely oblivious to the fact that there will be time spent from the moment I am in now, to the completing a dream I have. Again I never really finish anything I start.

I don't know this is not what I wanted to say I'm just frustrated at trying to say how I feel but never really being able to get all of it out. ****...