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I have the opposite problem!  I post on PC without editing or deleting, which is probably why some of my threads are too personal and controversial, or I end up feeling hurt. When I was younger, I used to rewrite letters because I was so much of a perfectionist. I find it freeing to be honest and open here where no one (I hope) knows me in RL.
If I post on here, I usually end up telling my T about it. I know it's a risk and it's hard, but what do you have to lose? Most of us are very understanding and nonjudgmental because we have issues of our own. I wish that everyone would post with that in mind but I know it's still hard to take the risk.
I tell my T everything and that feels freeing too.
What exactly are you afraid of, tigergirl? Of being judged and criticized, or of being embarrassed?
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hi rain - the afraid of/scary ... i actually meant because the subject matter can be very triggery and sensitive and i find it hard to post about when it's things like connected with CSA, other abuse, SI and sui thoughts at times
with the sometimes deciding it is better to share things with my T first; some of it has to do with the style of therapy we do which is very much about the dynamics of the T relationship and that relationship itself is helping me with healing. Sometimes - If i write something here and others respond before I share it with my T, I find that I'm usually going in to the therapy session with those responses in mind and have a preconceived idea of how he will react ... and even assume his reaction at times before he has had a chance to give it which doesn't always work so well
with my old CBT therapist it wouldn't have mattered so much because the therapy was more about what was going on with me and changing thoughts; so he wanted me to find out things from others as well
so I end up wanting input on one hand, and also knowing it can impact my therapy sessions on the other hence part of the push and pull of posting and editing
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You can ask here AND talk to T about it. 
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thanks growly
