Thank you so much for the kind words =]. I did decide to write the paper. writing this kind of inspired me. And the ER is useless and because I am a cutter (although it has been quite awhile), they just want to put you on a hold and then let you go...That's why it is the almost anything =/. I do try and work on a to do list. It helps when my mind begins to race and I can't keep track of my thoughts, much less remember what it is I am supposed to/ have to do. I have to admit, lately it has been discouraging because I seem to not be able to complete the list, but I also try and take a lot of notes to sort of help remember the necessities, and try and clear some of the clutter in my mind. Lately I feel like I have about 30 people just yelling in my head at all times because of the amount of thoughts -_-. Prioritizing is super difficult because things that seem so important at 2am, and keeps me up for hours after due to how important it feels at the time, doesn't seem so important the next day. Also, with having to do my school work online because of my social anxiety, it makes it so that human interaction is limited making the depression a little worse, so I try to motivate myself to come on here every night and have not only a form of interaction, but a way to ramble and dump some of the thoughts and remind myself that I did SOMETHING at least. And it helps to have people who understand and have kind words and advice to help me through this.