I miscarried at 6 Weeks 2 months ago and I can't get over it; i'm always on the verge of tears or a complete meltdown. I can't live like this, my heart is just broken beyond repair. I almost don't feel like this is fixable. I obsess and think about it about it constantly. I hate pregnant women and can't stand to look at them. I find myself just glaring them down for no reason. I feel like no one understands me and acts like I can just have another baby. I wanted that one. I cry constantly, I go in alternating periods of sleeping 12+ hours a day to barely 15 hours a week. I've put on weight, I eat sporadically, I bicker and look for reasons to fight with my family, I want to be alone, but can't stand being left to my own thoughts. I hate myself so deeply. I don't know what to do anymore. I don't even think i'm worth fixing at this point.I wonder if I'll always feel like this.
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