I love slash & man on man stuff. I've said for years if I'd been born a guy I'd be a gay guy. I dont really like watching/reading male/female sex scenes, I think part of it is my insecurity with myself & hatred of myself& constantly comparing myself to the woman& not living up to that standard.
I am happy to be a woman most of the time, and want to experience pregnancy& have children and feel fine about my sex/gender, but sometimes I'm intrigued as to what it would be like to be a man and as a child I was a total tomboy, also up until adulthood my best friends have always been male because I got on better with guys. It's weird it's like I don't want to not be a woman and there's stuff Id miss if I wasn't a woman, but part of me wishes I was a gay guy instead. I'd love to be a guy for a week just to see what it's like. Not as in 'identify as a guy' but properly *be* a guy yanno?
Anyway, I digress… basic response is I love slash& used to write fic but now just tend to beta it & have various OTP's I ship lol.
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'sometimes life breaks in mysterious ways'
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