I need someone to intervene with the terrible life choices I am about to make. I have been off meds for a little over a month now and I am not controlling my "bipolarness" very well. I'm trying everything I can to breathe and push away negative thoughts and when I'm manic I try everything I can to not be impulsive but it isn't working. Right now I'm toying with the idea of dropping out of college... I can't focus well enough during classes. On top of it, I can't afford a pdoc or therapist. I'm so desperate for help right now. I don't want to ruin my life.