Hey,Shrink patient
Please understand that I am not trying to minimize your frustration and despair,...it is real. I believe many of us question the benefits of therapy at times. I have found myself feeling angry, upset, like my T doesn't give a damn, alone,and frustrated to feeling safe, understood, cared for, validated and even liked. I,too believe that we project our feelings onto our T's. As hard as it might be, maybe you can have a discussion with your T. Or just print out your post. I am better able to communicate my feelings via email as opposed to face to face...it's hard!!
Hang on and never give up...thinking of you :-)