An important question, even at this late hour. How much of what am I doing will I take responsibility for? How often will I apologize for my actions, and how sincere will the apology be when I am in a fit of ragefulness? Have I tried, really tried, to be better, or have I used my dx as a crutch? When will I shut off the anarchy of emotions and rely on self-reliance? What am I doing, and why am I doing it?