I know it feels like you're in a pit of sadness and nothingness but there's more to life than this. You hate your job, it's ok alot of people do. You don't have friends, live on and make some. I'll be your friend if you want . No motivation, it'll come eventually so don't worry. Are you seeing a therapist or taking medication? It could be a big help; even when you feel that all hope is gone there's always a little. You posting on here is proof and the response that I saw you give another member is also proof. Don't give up!