Therapy is the most courageous thing we're ever do. I use to think whrn T commented on people that forgot their sessions etc because they didnt 'hold onto' the process that they were the strong ones. That I was weak because I arrived on time always and never forgot sessions etc. T showed me my thinking was upside down. Turning up and just doing it through all the shame and embarrassment is courage. Fearing it but going any ways is the true diffination if courage.
My family can't trigger me now. My regressing to a child state was imperative to my healing.
It's your choice at the end of the day. But I chose to live the best life I could. We only live once. Who'd want to have their past be their only epitaph.