You just have to keep trying you never know when the next med might work wonders. That's what I'm doing. Your post could be mine, so I understand. Just taking the next step one at a time. Waiting for something to work. It's called hope; I don't have much but it is better than nothing. And being here on Psych Central helps. There are lots of us in need of friends and willing to be friends. PM me if you want to talk.