I feel the same as you, Rainbow. When you have someone wonderful in your life, who you have connected to on a deep level, why would you want to let them go? The best I can say is there are other places where you can meet really caring people. I meet them mostly at my church and places where I volunteer. If you can look at yourself and honestly say that you are a compassionate person and an understanding friend, then you deserve to be friends with the same kind of person. If you fall a little short still...maybe you just have more work to do.