ive been seeing a therapist for a few months now for my ED- thing is I can only afford to see her every 2 weeks but I guess its better than nothing. I have an appt tomorrow and I have been feeling so hopeless these past 2 weeks. I like my T, I think she understands me and I dont think switching T's is what I need to do but I just feel like quitting; quitting therapy and quitting trying to recover. My body disgusts me, I have nothing to say to my T tomorrow, the only thing thats going through my brain is I hate myself and I hate my body. I feel like a shallow, 1 dimensional person. I don't have anything to say to her or anyone. I just hate myself and my body and I want to give up and quit.

The last session we had was just so useless, she tried hard to ask the right questions to get me talking but I just sat there because it feels like my brain is always in a fog, I couldn't even think straight and I coudln't come up with ANYTHING TO SAY.
what am I doing wrong??? sorry if this just is all rambling I'm just so lost and confused right now. Im sick of wasting my money and both of our time in therapy that is going no where. what do i even do next