It's not that I want a sexless relationship/marriage, but if there's too much pressure to have sex too quickly or too much, then I will feel forced into doing it, which would destroy any trust or emotional intimacy if there was any. To me, sex/intimacy/whatever is always forced and against my will and I have no say in the matter. Is it too much to ask someone to wait long enough for me to feel safe and to ask my permission before touching me in any way, at least the first time? Maybe not the most romantic, but at least then I'll feel like I have a choice and that how I feel is actually important to someone.

I've never been in a relationship mostly because of this and because of the fear that I'll just say yes to whatever the other person wants whether I want to or not—which will happen, I won't say no. Since the relationship would be pointless to the other person if I did say no, right? I really don't have the right to protest. Am I even really allowed to say no if I don't want the other person to just leave?

Oh well, it's good to understand the other viewpoint. I do understand that sex/intimacy separates a friendship from a relationship, I just don't want to forced into it without any choice.