((((((((((((((((((((Tomi))))))))))))))))))))))...
About Neil - I completely understand about the "He can't be dead", stunned feeling that you are experiencing, and I know you know that the types of losses that you are having now bring up the old ones too.
Time and patience with yourself is key; I wish so much that your DIL had a level of compassion/empathy at a time like this. Chances are that life will be teaching her some rather harsh lessons in the future...
Am keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. As ever, XOXO, Jillers
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