Wait... do they blame you or is this just how you see things?

They sound very not understanding to you. Have they even listened to you pdoc or T? I mean it sounds like that you feel the way you because of how they treat you. If they really are putting the blame on you, their the ones who need help! They need to become active parts of how you handle life and not distressing you by making you feel like you are not good enough.

If they would try to be understanding and even helpful I'm sure you would do better in the ares you should be doing well in.