I am not sure what a pdoc or T are...

I am not sure whether it is my interpretation or skewed memory of the events, but to me every time our family has a confrontation 9/10 times it is "my fault". I try my hardest at school and hide in my room at home to not "cause" conflict, which just invokes more. My mum is very confrontational (we're both dominant females), and usually discussions like this end in fights where I get described as an "attention seeker".

I am unsure as how to go about making my mum understand more as she doesn't seem to listen or I am bad at explaining. I love my family, but more often then not I find myself saying the phrase "I want to go home" in my head when I am already "home".

p.s. my mother is very stubborn and she is going through a difficult stage as our gran has increasingly worse dementia, however I feel this is no excuse as to making me feel like crap too