with all these new changes in my life, the move being about a month away... and doing it for the first time on my own I've realized you know what? I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE FRAK i'M DOING!

I ws looking at furniture.. ok costs..fine it's going to take awhile but that's not the problem.

For the first time since having my own "room" as a kid, that I went all out and decorated myself... with silly sht of course.. I have a whole new place for me and the kids and I don't even know the first thing about really having your own place and how to make it "home". I mean really? yeah I'm in my mid 40s and I've never really lived this way, on my own and being the one in control of such things. yes I'm serious.

I don't think I've ever really even seriously thought about these things.

any suggestions?