When the suicidal impulses come, they don't leave, I have to do everything that I can to just survive.... Even though I don't want to live another day, because of all the pain... I know it's the new med, that is causing this, and the tip of the iceburg was simple the jury duty form, which I need to send in... but I'm very scattered, can't think straight, and just have to keep going.

There are people out there that are whole, but they still have good days and bad days.