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Originally Posted by Anika.
... First few days I felt amazing, exploding with vibrant energy I could literally feel bursting out my finger tips and toes. I also would be quite grandiose at the stage, often I would hear running commentary..commenting on my every move yes, but also cheering me on. Quicker wit, fast speech, less sensitive etc ( my hypo)
But this would only last a week or so before ...
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Originally Posted by Anika.
... When I actually look at it more it seems like I was probably juat manic from the start, when you are hearing commentary ..that might be further manic than hypo. But that is my starting point, maybe I just wanted to have hypo too. 
When people here refer the crash of depression after mania or hypo all I can relate with is the further spiral to dysphoric mania, that would be my crash. And then back to baseline eventually. Also makes me wonder if that is not hypo, do I get hypo? Maybe I don't. Maybe I do and dont see it.
And yes It bugs me if I am using the wrong the term, it took me forever to find the right term for my agitation, I dunno makes me think of washing machines. Kinda felt like I was in one but didn't come to mind that that was what I was feeling. So stuck to the statement " I feel like I need to go blow up a walmart " as an alternative and you can see how that might be taken. Probably not as restless energy. |
In your initial post, where you talk about how it starts -- all of that totally sounds like hypomania. So to the question in your second post, I'd say that yes, you
do get hypo and, as you've noted, that state lasts about a week for you before turning. The "commentary"... well, I don't know, but I get a lot of internal commentary (at all times, but of wildly different natures) and haven't ever thought of it as more than that. So I guess the sort of "hearing" you get might help clarify. For example... I hear it internally, as one does thoughts. (When a
good hypo --which it often isn't-- it's rather obnoxiously grandiose , but it is way more than countered by the scathing self-diatribes of my mixed.) I also hear it externally, but that is only because I'm running my yap.
I don't hear it as a separate entity voice.
The "crash". This is not a given in my world either. I
have experienced it that way (and badly). But it
doesn't always go that way. Talk about a disincentive to rein it in(!) I may well "get away with it", and when hypo, of course believe that I WILL get away with it, lol!
Agitation. (Washing machines, heeheehee!) That's a big issue for me too. Very useful word.
Ahhh, break over. Back to moving...