I need to vent.

I keep self-harming, but there is no need to. I can stop myself, I know I could, but I just don't. I've been given these wonderful techniques and ideas from different people who love me and want to help me, but I just won't stop myself. I don't know anymore, it feels like I'll never get better, I'll never stop. The problem is that I don't want to, but I do want to as well. If I don't hurt myself then I hurt so badly inside its unbearable.

This isn't right, there are people out there who legitimately can't control themselves, and here I am with all these options and will to stop, and I don't! I just feel so sad and angry and disappointed in myself anymore, and that makes it worse. I just don't know what more to say, what more to do, it all just doesn't make any sense at all!