Yeah, no one tells me anything it seems...apparently I went out on a date several years ago (it was news to me...I'm clueless and don't automatically assume these things) and I think he wanted to kiss me at the end or something, but I got scared, said goodnight and ran off.

The point is, all of this stuff is assumed. Everyone else knows what's going on. And I can't just ask because I'll look stupid either way (if it is a date, I'm stupid for not realizing it, and if it isn't I'm stupid for thinking they would ever like me that way).

So, it's difficult to be honest and communicate because my opinion is always wrong or stupid or they don't care what I have to say. Or I'm just talking to a giant wall. Guys (except for a small handful that I've met throughout my life) don't care what I have to say, let alone how I feel. I'm either ugly or stupid. Whatever. I know why—I threaten they're masculinity. I was always more masculine than effeminate and I was the favorite of a lot of my professors and used that to my advantage. I make them feel small, but that's ok, most of them were.

But it's still difficult to communicate because of embarrassment, being called stupid or that I'm over-reacting or it doesn't really matter because they won't listen anyway.

One other question—when should deal-breakers be discussed when forming a relationship (pre-marriage)