so you know how people will always say, oh you have plenty of time for that, or hey don't rush yourself! it will happen! Yeah I've come to the conclusion that that doesn't mean anything. I never had a girlfriend in highschool, or ever, and I just remember going into college hearing my friends tell me, hey man, it will happen in college! or even my first year of no success, just hearing, hey it'll happen man! You have all of college to find someone, don't worry about it! Well. Time's up. I'm a senior and graduating this year. Still nothing. I don't know how this happened. People tell me I'm handsome. I'm interesting. I'm nice. I'm funny. I listen. All things I think would make for a good boyfriend! Yet, another year passes, and I'm still left single and lonely. What is wrong with me? And I don't think hearing that I shouldn't rush it and it will happen when it happens, or when the time is right, will help.

I never had any intimate experience with a girl in college, the one time in your life where you are just supposed to let loose and have fun. The best four years of your life they say. And I didn't get to experience it. So what am I supposed to do now? Just accept it and remain bitter? Or just keep trying to find someone? I really don't know what to do. Each time the year starts I just think ok, fresh new start, this is the year, everyone is single now just like you, but then BAM, first week and it seems everyone is already in a relationship. What am I doing wrong?? I mean, girls always talk to me, it just seems like they always just see me as a friend though. I am just never presented with the right opportunities. Right now I am just spending my weekends trying to get myself drunk enough to have the courage to go to parties and meet girls. Nothing ever happens with this. I feel pathetic doing it. I seriously don't know what else to do though. If I seriously go through college without ever having had a girlfriend or even KISSING a girl, I will feel like I seriously just failed at life right there.