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Originally Posted by Syra
I think I would feel the same way. Actually, I think I do feel the same way. I left a message telling my T I hurt, but okay enough that I wouldn't "do" anything, and previously he had told me to call him back if I needed to. I believe him when he says that, and I also think that I would never call and tell him I NEEDED to. maybe. not sure. it would be hard. I would just tough it out. I would be afraid to be that needy. And I would be afraid of getting too attached and grateful if he went out of his way for me like that.
I didn't ask for anything. I thought he might call back. I didn't realize that I hoped he would call back, and I'm disappointed that he didn't call back, just to see how I was doing.
So I totally understand (I think) your feelings of being depressed about it. And feeling like cancelling everything makes sense to me too. I've felt that way. sort of like STOP THE WORLD. I WANT TO GET OFF (a song & musical from the 60s). I feel like that sometimes. not sure if that's the same for you.
I'm sorry to hear your are having flashbacks. I imagine it's draining to have them, and then hard to wait days and days to be able to work on them. Is that it?
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Thats definitly it, glad you understand I regretted the call as soon as I placed it. Wednesday cant come soon enough but I feel resentment now, I am kind of a mess , she did suggest weekly sessions but said no more about it, I think I will let my pride down ajd ask her.