Hi, Idislikemyself, welcome to PC. You do sound rather depressed and when we are depressed we usually have many self doubts and fears about how we look and act. If you haven't consulted a professional, I think it would be a good time. Therapy can help you get past your self doubts and help you sort out your feelings. A psychiatrist could possibly help with medicaiton. There are many things that can be done to help you out of this slump. As far as finding a mate, that may take time for you to heal first. And you do seem to have a particular type of woman you want, which may limit your ability to find someone. I wouldn't take much stock in what happened to you on the online social site, those things are hit and miss and usually not very helpful. You seem like a nice, intelligent guy. I think you are being to hard on yourself and just need help getting rid of all the negative stuff so you can be more confident. Glad you have you dog. They are wonderful companions.