Yes, I did. And it was a joy of my life, until a few weeks ago. I have been working with 2 trainers 5 hours a week total, plus swimming lessons. The guys are awesome. The cardio is a small group setting, the strength guy is one in one and he is really awesome. I see the dietician regularly. And I have done so well. I was pretty weak when I started, really out of shape compared to my peak in my 20's. could barely lift, couldn't even run, now I can do a 5k and bench 110. I have been doing long rides on weekends, getting really close to doing a century, longest to date 85 miles.

I was looking forward to doing things in the future that would be amazing for me, taking triathlon training, doing a bootcamp program, ultimately taking the Alpha training course. Was. Now I doubt I can get there, and this is all so sudden.

And I now hate myself and am throwing it all away, disappointing everyone. Because I hate myself 1,000 times over. And frankly, I would rather be dead than this miserable.

I saw my pdoc this week, we added Prozac, hope it helps.