You think not having tried acid is bad? Try telling people at a college party you're a 22 year old virgin. Do you know how many people make jokes about sex and everything? IT's weird. It's awkward. I'm sure people talk about their sexual experiences more than they talk about acid... Sex is everywhere in our society.

It's not like I'm Amish. It's not like I'm necessarily waiting until marriage (I'm not really sure I even believe in marriage anymore). I just haven't found the right person. I had someone who I was seeing who wanted to have sex... but I always told them I wasn't ready to go that far. He seemed like it meant eventually we would, but I kinda meant I didn't think he was the right person to do that with. It's screwed up.

Anyways, the point is... despite everyone talking about sex and how sometimes it seems like people think you must be some kind of child or inexperienced naive idiot if you haven't had sex... I haven't done it. I say, screw them! I'm respecting myself enough to keep this decision. It's important to me. In fact, even when I am outrightly asked about sex and I tell them I'm a virgin, I actually get a lot of respect for it. Sometimes, it seems to make me more attractive to some people because of the implications of it - i.e. I haven't given in to peer pressure, I don't sleep around, somehow people think I'm almost more trustworthy because of it.

At the same time, I try not to judge people who have had sex. It was their decision. They did it. It's their life, not mine.

I'm sure you can draw parallels between this and your life. Possibly.. hopefully it's somewhat helpful.

And honestly, I tried mushrooms. I read an article in the Scientific American that it can help you figure out existential crises. They were even thinking about using it as a treatment for patients with cancer to improve their quality of life. I tried them with my friend. And not much happened. She was one of the few people who it seems are immune to shrooms. I, on the other hand, tried to throw up several times. Everything felt real and unreal at the same time. I thought the wall was breathing. I saw vines and lines swirling around on the ceiling.. like the ceiling was some organic thing. And I could see a rainbow in her fan/light thing.

nothing really enlightening. I guess it's kind of fun to say that I did it.. if asked. But I certainly don't advertise it. Just like how I don't tell everyone I like to smoke pot.

When people hear you've done drugs, sometimes it changes their perception of you. Like oh.. you've indulged in marijuana? This means you MUST be a bad influence. You can't POSSIBLY be a responsible person ever.

It's unfortunate and stupid, but people have their biases.

I say, if you feel in your gut instincts that you shouldn't do it. Don't do it. We have gut instincts for a reason. When you go against gut instinct, that's when you experience regret. And in my opinion, regret is the worst emotion of all.