What sorts of things are you interested in? For instance, do you like model airplanes, or cats, or classical music, or comic books? I'm not trying to reduce your pain to a trivial level, it's just that sometimes it's good to have something to focus on other than yourself. It's also good to allow yourself time with something you enjoy, even if you feel at first like you don't deserve it, because it sends a message to your subconscious mind that you are a valuable person who has the right to be happy. Best wishes.