first and foremost, hugs. you are not the only financial wreck around here (finger pointing to myself). you are doing the responsible thing by calling the psych rehab worker and getting an appointment asap w/ pdoc. You are still self-aware so good for you on that front! I don't know if you feel like you have any control over your the level of escalation, but i have found that forcing myself to stretch and meditate (even for 1 min) has been helpful. when those two things are not approachable, i breathe. I breathe in as much as i can and then i exhaled as much as i can. it is sort of an aggressive form of breathing but when my anxiety is high or my body/mind is busy it works to help. I just do it every time i remember or think of it. I try to set my iphone timer for however long i think i can focus. there are times when i get two breaths in and my brain checks out. I still feel those two breathes were worthwhile though.

I hope your landing is soft and that there are no more bumps on this "flight" : )