Idealization and devaluation, going back and forth between those two extremes, is very common in BPD. With me personally, I never idealize anyone, my default mode is devaluing people and that's how it's always been for me.
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I can fully, FULLY relate to BOTH sets of experiences.
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It's possible to have more than one PD. I'm not a professional so I can't diagnose you obviously, but in my opinion it sounds like you have more than "just" BPD going on here.
I'd encourage you to keep talking about this, the more awareness you have of yourself and how you "work" so to speak, the better. If you ever want to talk about any of this privately my inbox is open.