Thank you Fayerody for taking the time to read my post and responding. That means alot to me. I do feel so very alone in the world. I am trying not to feel guilty but it is so hard not to. I talked to my mom as she was dying and I think she heard me. I think she understood that I wasn't able to do more for her but that I wish i could have. I know holidays are hard for alot of people. I am trying to hang in there and have faith. Thanks again for your concern and support.

Bree Marie