Ok....the person I feel bad for is your Mom.....she is watching her 42 yr old son move "back" into her basement...back...as in..you came back....what were you doing in there to begin with? And then she is watching you act like a teenager over a woman whose first love is crack...you call her a "girl".... she ain't no girl....and you are not a boy....you might be two immature humans, but you are statistically known as a man and woman...who at your ages should be in another place..not where you are...

Now....how is it that you are gonna tell us that the love of your life does crack, crank and wank...but you never did? We were not born yesterday.....the truth likely is when you couldn't keep up supply of demand, she found someone who could....when his money ran out..she moved on..because female addicts do that.....your drifter status would suggest something in your life did not allow for stability....you can't have one stable person and one drifter addict in the same relationship....

I don't blame you for looking at your life and not having a zeal that makes you want to thrive...you have no job, dope, or woman.....and if you don't have dope, you won't have a woman, but if you have dope, you won't have a job...do you kind of see where this gets complicated? First of all...lots of women do not mind bald men....bald is in today....being jobless and bald? Not sure...your first priority should be to yourself...if you have any addictions, you must clean em up, get rid of them... do not take cocaine annie's phone calls....clean your mama's basement....and get a place that will be close to jobs....find a love interest on the net if you have to, but never ever allow someone to use your "bills" to poison their bodies...