Yeah I think its a little late for me to develop schizophrenia, my grandfather was DX'd Paranoid Schizophrenia though and "battle fatigue" aka PTSD after he came back from the Western Front. It appears that PTSD runs in my family along with mood disorders. I definitely have some anger issues, I am working on these issues as well. I've lived with excessive anger, anxiety and depression related issues since I was 2 years old. There is war inside my head, and I feel like I'm losing right now. My anxiety isn't even bad today, nor is my depression, the only meds they make for paranoia and anger are antipsychotics which I am unwilling to take. Even when my anxiety and depression are under control, my PTSD is out of control. Scientists need to get busy with some PTSD - specific meds that aren't just SSRI's I wouldn't take SSRI's if they were the only cure for depression on the planet.

Last time I took SSRI's I attempted to off myself, I took antipsychotics once and they made me feel horrible. I would rather be paranoid and angry than taking those meds, they cause brain damage ya know? I think my anger issues are deep seated in my personality, I've tried anger management, court mandated therapy etc and nothing has helped it. CBT is slowly fixing my negative thought patterns. The first part of my recovery was to realize that I was my own biggest enemy. I had become the monsters I used to hate.

"Whoever fights monsters should see to it that in the process he does not become a monster. And if you gaze long enough into an abyss, the abyss will gaze back into you." ~ Friedrich Nietzsche