Sounds like your "anger" waves can be pretty strong. If you can get so you realize the "anger wave" will subside you can learn go manage it better. I went through a period where the "anger" would just "pop out of me" and took me by surprise. I told my husband to do his best to ignore it because I realized the "only" way I could work on it was "back wards" because it came out before I "consciously" got angry if that makes sense.

I am way better than I used to be. Talk it out if you can, it is better than holding it in.

((Hugs)))
OE