hi. When I read your post it reminded me of what a healing teacher once told me. She told me to beware of resistance once i start a new healing class which I was going to be doing. Because it is sure to come up. The important thing is to not give in to the resistance. Its the part of each one of us that will most likely come up. But the warning was to just stay the course. Do not let the negative thoughts etc make decisions for me.

I listened to her. And I had to fight with all my might to stay. To not give up no matter what. There is a reason why you are not talking. Its probably a very important reason. Perhaps you can respect that you cannot talk. And try to work on that first. For me, years ago, I was afraid to talk because I was constantly warned by my mother and others never to talk. it was the law. So if I talked I knew I would go into terror. I ended up resolving this issue. But it wasnt easy. It was totally worth it though. I got released from the prison of silence. I am not saying your reason for not being able to talk is the same as mine. But i am saying its as real as mine is. And I hope you can respect that it is real. I hope you will stay in therapy, one way or another, with someone. Please allow yourself as much time as needed, and compassion to work through the issues that keep you silent or mute when you are there.