these are the times that try one's spirit. remember what it says in the "Tibetan Book of Living and Dying" : keep a cheerful spirit around those who are preparing to pass, so that you might not be a burden to them. we can learn so much from allowing all the emotions and memories and hopes and fears to surface and pass on, also. you are not alone in this Yoda~ many of us have been through that pass and are with you in spirit~