Hey OPRMC, there are so many things you have said that are mirrored in my own life it isn't even funny. I'm a 23 year old male and I feel very much like my life is headed in the same exact direction as yours. I live with my mom and my brother, my brother is 31 years old. I've never had friends or a girlfriend in my life. I worry about all the same things you are worrying about daily. I too have been interested in music in the past. I've played in jazz band at school on the bass guitar. Now, I have no interest in music at all, let alone anything. I don't have any suggestions for you as I am obviously in the same boat as you, but just wanted to let you know I feel the exact same way.