@sunny*1
Your first T sounds amazing- just what I would like to have. I like my current T..I just don't know what to do. She really does understand what I'm going through and she often verbalizes things I wasn't able to put into words. It took me years to work up the courage to call her I don't know if I have it in me to find someone else but you're right it is my time and my money. I think Im just resistant right now because ED is so strong and loud
and yes finding a hobby or something to connect with is such a good suggestion, I know I need something like that to help me get out of my thoughts and realize there is more to me and life than this ED. thanks

@sunsetsunrise-- thank you for this, seriously. helped me to think about the fact that of course there is going to be resistance and well I dont quite know how to put it into words but I think I'll save this and read it when I'm feeling the negativity and discouragement and wanting to quit. just thanks