so I feel like I don't really belong in this forum, but I want to.
I mean, I'm not sure if I'm actually bulimic or not. I've always had moments where I'd eat way too much, like having a box of chocolate or chips or whatever and not being able to stop until the box is empty / until there's nothing left.
I also have a big problem leaving food on a plate, even if I feel uncomfortably full I can't stop.

I've been hating myself for eating too much all this time, and have tried to make myself throw up several times, but it just doesn't work. I'm also no good at exercising, I just can't make myself. So usually after eating too much I just feel horrible, get depressed and frustrated, and don't want to ever eat again. Sadly (or maybe not sadly, as of course that's not exactly healthy) I can't ever go through with it for long. Sometimes it's only a few hours till I can't take the feeling anymore and have to eat again. Currently it's about 24 hours since I last ate something. That's how long it usually takes until I have to eat again.

I really don't know whether that makes me bulimic. I don't want to think I'm just an overeater or binge eater. Looking at my BMI, I go from high normal weight to low overweight and back every once in a while. I just want to be skinny, but I can't ever get there. Most of the time, I'm disgusted by how I look. Food definitely rules my life, I'm either eating way too much or trying not to eat at all. I can never just enjoy a little snack because I'll always feel guilty about eating.