Well first, Lamictal takes a while to start working. Sometimes a few weeks. You are titrating, I hope. That feeling of not being in control will likely subside some whenever the Lamictal kicks in.

Those of us who are bipolar get dragged around by our moods all of the time. I guess you sort of get used to it, but not really. I imagine it's the same, but to a lesser extent for cyclothymia.

There are several people on the forum who use coping mechanisms, sometimes with meds, sometimes without. One of them should be able to explain it to you. I've never had much luck with things like that, but that's just me. Like you say, I just suck it up and push through it.

Hang in there.