I went through child sexual emtional abuse, and neglect from my momsince i can remember the age of 6. When I told her at the age of 13 she along with an older brother and sister slapped me and called me a "Liar" since then whatever came out of my mouth was a lie to them. The "Man" my father embarrassing for me to even say, was the one doing it when his drinking got out of hand. We are 7 siblings well 6 now one brother God Bless him passed from Muscular Dyatrophy at 18. My mom has a problem with favoritism and of coarse I not that one of coarse, one I don't meet her standards I came put brown curly hair brown eyes. God I didn't come out green eyes white complexted what a shame, you know the odd seed but not a good one inherent eyes. Didn't here your beautiful, pretty nothing like that yet I heard it from others so I found it to be that she just didn't Love me. The Man died at age 65 with never admitting to his faults, my mom is now 82 and still treats me the same I am 47 and have to keep away from a big family to avoid getting hurt. They all see me as a bad seed, trouble maker, and will say anything to hurt me. My oldest sister still admits she wish I would have never been born cas I came in and took over her being the only girl. My mom never understood all I wanted was for her to Love me as her Child, all we have is a friendship relationship and even that goes out sometimes. She has always blamed me for what that man did. I have stopped talking to her for the last 3 months and my siblings blame me for moms heart condition at the moment cas I won't talk to her but I can't stand to here her degrade me or call me names anymore I have been at Peace lately is there anything wrong with that? I have made my Peace with God and asked for forgiveness and told him that things are better off this way.

Looking for Peace